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Day 1 – Start Up
Heigh-ho! This is Kermit the Frog blogging from Derrick Writes – NOT.
I’m kidding. I’m Derrick, and I’ve embarked on a 30-day blogging plan.
Today’s theme for Day 1: A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
Technically, my day hasn’t ended to even begin. I’m in Jakarta, still not packed for my return to Singapore. I’ve had a great time here and I believe I’m in for more in the future – hopefully I’ll be more organised in the planning.
This is technically my most special trip to date – if I’m in the mood to share why, I would.
I will continue the post for today later tonight, when I’m back in Singapore.
to ten million fireflies
I know, I know…
It’s no secret that I’m about to ORD soon.
It’s also no secret that I’ve not found a job.
It’s not a secret also that my relationship with the batchmates have considerably become better. Somewhat.
Been resting at home, trying to find inspiration what to post, which most probably gonna be a weekly thing, before I commit to a more regular update schedule.
I was listening to Sam Tsui‘s cover of Fireflies (originally by Owl City) and I’m amazed by the introduction, to be honest. Uplifting, beautifully crafted and in Sam Tsui’s cover – greatly executed, the staccatos, tone are fabulously executed and rich.
Matt Thiessen of Relient K (yes! that rocking band!) described the song as “a little song about bugs and not being able to fall asleep at night,” though the fireflies in the song’s title also serve as a metaphor for the loss of childlike imagination and wonder in adulthood. (Source: Wikipedia)
How nice is that?
This is the original, because Sam Tsui is kinda overrated.
The lyrics are here:
You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Light up the world as I fell asleep
Cause they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You’d think me rude
But I would just stand and stareI’d like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Cause everything is never as it seemsCause I’d get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread)I’d like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)
Leave my door open just a crack (Please take me away from here)
Cause I feel like such an insomniac (Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep? (Please take me away from here)
When I’m far too tired to fall asleepTo ten million fireflies
I’m weird cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell)
But I’ll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jarI’d like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Cause everything is never as it seemsI’d like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)I’d like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams
I declare Fireflies as my ORD song, because it sounds so free and such – which is the feelings I want to feel.
But instead, life decides to play its tricks on me; universities rejecting me, work seems to be the hardest thing to find, and of course, the occasional disappointments that people/situations drop by.
I like to immerse myself in these songs to just charge myself up. Disappointments always come, and unless you have someone who is always-ready to take you by the shoulders to sit you down and talk to you, you only have yourself.
I shared on FB a few qu0tes that crossed me recently.
#1
Everybody is just finding their place in this world, some in particular people, things or activities; and along with other people doing the same, clashes will occur. That’s life. On friends, actions and words, epiphanies they are not. Inspired, they come, and to inspire, they’ll go. Money will not buy one that comes with spirit, truth and heart.
I’m compiling a few of these quotes, while trying to find inspiration to continue writing WORDS.
Like dammit. Where are the muses when I need one?!
Anyway, I’m so looking forward to clubbing again. Maybe with the (soon-to-be ex-) colleagues. I don’t wish to be seen or be near anyone who drinks and then blabber like some kid; so if you wonder why I don’t drink at times versus when I drink – you might want to think about it.
And yes. It was a well-kept secret that I do club, but I don’t go alone. I hate doing these social things alone. I’d only go if people ask me along, and I’m not broke.
Now, as I continue with my newly-created Owl City playlist. You guys should check them out, if you haven’t.
To ten million fireflies, and the sight it beholds when they gather.
Of Dreams and Anything else I thought up
We all have dreams. Be it a short term goal or something that might take years, it all began as a dream.
I beseech that whatever it is, sometimes you should evaluate it, and make a move forward. Never stop moving unless you’re very sure you’ll meet a roadblock. You can get over it.
Being human, we get discouraged too easily and stop advancing, or going after a “new dream” – that of which isn’t really what we’re after.
If knowing your enemy is half the battle won, knowing how to advance your dream into the goalpost is the other half.
But Life, as we know it, isn’t a bed of roses without the thorns.
Some people have the same dream as us, just that they might not be closer than you have towards it; and some of them will retaliate as if you’re stealing their dream.
Note: Nobody is able to steal another person’s dream. It is not a wrong to have the same dream, even if you’re a guy and you want to be a female.
The only way it goes to lose your dream, and see your life spirals out of control is by your own effort.
Detractors will come with their sob tales of having a life-less childhood, thus being unable to do certain things, or being oppressed from fulfilling their dreams. You’ll feel discourage thinking that such dinosaurs have already failed – how much more will you do any better?
Like I said, “You’re still alive, aren’t you?”
Are you? Take a deep breath and feel the oxygen course through your body. You should feel more relaxed.
There is a fine line between advice and coercion – only you can draw that line yourself, because it is YOUR LIFE, YOUR DREAM and YOUR DESTINY.
I take in any input, even from my mother or best friend; and I give serious thought into it. If a Mary, Jane, Tom or Harry off the streets were to tell me what to do, I’ll just give give them a ha’pence of attention (respect still) and just move on.
People don’t do things for no reason. If you feel you’ve been wronged, you can either prove yourself or deal with it face on and prove yourself.
That was 2 options to choose from, mind you.
Nobody told the top students to study. Some of them party till the dawn breaks, and it’s a new day to achieve that sterling ace again!
Most successful dreamchasers I know fight off these detractors and distractions; and look where they are!
A paradox it seems, but Life also provide means for us to get away from it all; including our dreams. Things such as recreation, ambitions, disappointments and wants.
Do not get distracted too easily that you end up losing sight of your dream.
Yet, do not let your dream supercedes what your life needs to go on. If you dream of becoming a billionaire, don’t starve all day to save pennies. Work, and earn hundreds to begin with.
Do not stop fighting to keep the flame alive for your dream. Know that there’s always a first to anything that keeps us going on and on.
I’m not a motivational speaker, nor a philosophy student. I just have a need to pen down what’s in my thoughts and share.
Nobody is obligated to agree with me, nor say anything. You are a free person, as much as I am to say these things.
But could you believe that I started with this line: We are free to dream, and pursue it.
Dedicated to the memory of Lilian Chin, to which I thank her for always encouraging me to go forward; and Acappuccino, my group of friends who has fought together with me and presented a great time of singing together, despite the tough times.
I feel like Rachel Berry now. Hahahahaha…
